I'm freaking damn weak

I dont know why i choose to believe lies or choose to believe in the impossible. Whichever is it, only god knows. Although i applaud my courage sometimes but such courage can also be fucking silly. Reminds me of Rihanna's song..

In any case, if the opp doesnt care then i shouldnt either. Life sucks but the only way is to suck life back. I hate my ego and how i find it hard to pour my problems out to people when i know i need to. One day i'll go crazy and just die. I'm sure this incident won't kill me but someday, somethign else would. Its gonna be just that way. Don't dabble.

Right now, i just wanna go on a holiday but i obviously can't, since i'm working.. And i need money to live. I just might buy an air tix to vietnam on impulse for July. But that's kind of retarded since by right, i should get over this mini turned huge fiasco by my Birthday. Oh, my birthday better not be a lousy one otherwise my life is really fucked up. MAJOR.

I thank my frens for being there to ask wats happening. I may not tell y'all everything but trust me, i really want to. And knowing tt y'all care enough to ask is good enough for me. LOVES.

PS: I will not let tears cloud my eyes, cos that is defeat in your eyes.

Got it, lost it.

A bullshit week this is, went from a peak to a sudden gorge. Life sucks in essence. Anyways, moving on once again just as i thought life was turning for the better..

Waiting for my dear pay! Please please, i need money badly. I'm once again at the stage of wanting to retire from clubs for at least a while. Sick of it alrdy and nothing good comes out of it. Especially after unfortunate events. Wonder wat friday would turn out to be like =/

Shopped at Zipia this morning, gonna continue with ASOS tmr n tues night! Once again, throwing my pay to shopping then start to regret like approximately one month from nowwwwwwwwwww.

Went out with besties to town today. Town seriously sux! Fucking boring, nearly fainted from boredom. U two! We should go museum hopping one day, can comment on stupid and nonsensical pieces.
Followed by dinner with CYC at Greenhouse, shiokx, nearly died of bloatedness, i couldnt walk after tt. Every step seriously took my breath away. Every burp was like raising my chest to my head. Its worse than 10 graveyards, seriously. Lol.

Lastly, i would like to thank my frens for making feel like i have frens. LOVE Y'ALL MUCH!

PS: Will tmr be a better day?

Peach blossoms.

Its been some time since i felt like blogging i think.. today's a gloomy tuesday, sky's dark, cafe's empty except for one table. These sort of things get me depressed n thinking about life. I think its like that for everyone right? I've also realised tt i'm addicted to clubbing and my bones are itching madly now cos i didnt club for e whole of last week! God, please let tmr be fun! Please please please! I hope e pple at butter havnt gotten stricter on guys drinking lady's free drinks =P  And i'm hoping tt SOMEONE who doesnt read my blog will go but somehow, i doubt so..                                                                                             PS:  I might lose. 

Tuesday Morning

Woke up too early NOT feeling like P. Diddy. Gotta go do some stuff to brighten myself up ltr! This week's probly gonna be a busy week. Meet ups, extended opening hours (hope my pay extends too) and hopefully something more =)

It feels right yet wrong, i dont know who to talk to cos i hate to be bored to tears by pple with the same issues. Haiz.. Sometimes i think i can make pple laugh but i suck as a story teller, thats where my self inferiority complex kicks in. Damn. When the eyes are on me while i'm speaking.

My skin is drying up like crap, even crabtree & evelyn cant save me. Its been like this since Vietnam, even Shanghai wasnt so harsh on me..

Anyways, my ASOS stuff are finally coming in 15mins! According to the deliveryman.. But who trusts them =/

PS: I hope things are really turning for the better..

Weekenderlistic

Having that few hours of fun then leave myself feeling empty afterwards. I dont know if its worth it but i'd rather let it be.

I need to find new songs to upload to my phone, the songs are getting so boring that i'd rather not listen to anything. Its irritating that there's no radio airwaves in the MRT's underground tracks. Damn. But i'm always laughing to myself like an idiot when i listen to radio outside.

I'm gonna be a good boy for these few weekdays and "wakeup-go work-go home-bathe-sleep". I try ok! I TRY.

Went out with CYC for Jap buffet at IKOI, Miramar Hotel. It was not bad but the first time that i didnt stuff myseld to my limit at a buffet, SO PROUD OF ME =) Went for YAMI Yogurt after tt then went home. ONE MINUTE after i step into my hse, Johan Mummy calls to jio me to club. NAISE one, in e end i went. Such a nice fren, i am! Only when i reached home at 4.45am did i realise that my keys were with Johan, had to sit outside my hse and wait for 30mins before my maid finally came home from the market. Damn gross, good thing no neighbours walked passed. A drunk neighbour sitting at his doorstep is a not a GLAM sight to behold.

Sunday was spent with lots of food! Had my Grandma's fantastic Curry Chicken, i really loved it. Gonna have e leftovers for breakfast tmr =) Hope i dont get a stomach upset.. Then met Yanz and Eunice for Brunch at Sidewalk Tavern, had a big breakfast with poached eggs! Yum Yum! Had ice cream chef too, followed by dinner with the Family at Naive, a vegetarian restaurant at Katong, the food is actually quite good. At least of a higher standard than Kopitiam vegetarian tze char.

PS: Just a little bit more.