Wake up, Ryhn!

I'm really not interested in all that dating shit anymore. I'll live life as it is and live it for myself! WORK WORK WORK! Earn money, save money and enjoy myself in HCM in July! Wooooooooooooooooooooooots! All these revelations i got, were received from clubbing last night. Seeing my friend breakdown, noticing how its no longer all that much fun anymore. Seeing my fren breakdown really knocked some sense into me. Its not worth getting into a r/s when u end up not being able to let go. Its scary. I'm not gonna club so i can save my money up for better uses..

SO today, i bought a air tix to HCM on a whim just bought my travel insurance. Waiting for the hotel to respond to my email. Gonna head to e library to borrow a guidebook tmr =) I hope its gonna be fun to travel alone. Never tried that before! haha.

Lots of meet ups coming on this week, chit chat w kai ling, dim sum w yanru, SATC n ramen w CYC. I think e SATC and Ramen combo might be a little too ambitious, not positive that its gonna work out. Lol.

Looking forward to my pay this weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeek! Must save up some of it for HCM and Genting so that i can live like a King for a week. Fancy a king travelling on a budget airline! Lol.

PS: Shorts galore!

Sunday Morning

Sunday mornings with a hangover. I think my life is so screwed up. I'm kind of leading my life in a weird way. I want to do what i want to do but i do it differently. Its like meeting the stereotype halfway. I'm just weird lah..

I'm always attracting the wrong type of prospects. Maybe its because i look that way, so they assume i'm like them. Well, i play, but nothing more. I need to stop being emotional.

Anyways, i'm fucking hungry nowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww! Craving for McDonald's like totally!

I seriously think i'm a computer idiot cause i dont even know how to change my blog song. It doesn't even work now loh. WTH. Can someone be nice and help me please? I really really wanna change it to Christina's "I Am". Fell in love with it the first time i heard it.

PS: Time to go pai pai for a change in luck!

Me, myself & I

If i didnt have to work today, i'd be at Choupinette alone. Spending my day with a book in hand and indulging in all those sinful energy providers (of course). I'm feeling vry down and lonely today, dont know why.. I'm sure its not because of any person. Its just a general feeling. That feeling of emptiness and having no sense of direction. Then again, it might be due to the many chain of events recently tts putting me in a not-so-happy state.. Well, life will work itself out somehow i guess.     P/S: Fate fate fate.. Come to me please =(

Piss you off!

I'm listening to Kelis's new album now, 22nd Century. I'm starting to love dance tracks now. Not like those mm tsk mm tsk ones like Tarzan and Jane. Those are a little over the top. I'm more of a fan of David Guetta's music. I really hope Kelly Rowland decides to go the dance route too, i would definitely buy her album!

Well, my personal life is gg for another turn this time but i've decided to be stronger and not allow myself to be disposable. Wats the use of being bothered by someone who doesn't bother about you right?

Went out with yong di n alrik last night! OMG, i love my trio time. Its just so much more real, intimate and efficient. We can say watever we want, do impromptu stuff and alrik has a car. SHIOKZXZXZXZXZXZXZXZXZX!

I'm now still undecided if i should have only a pint of B&J for lunch or have maggi along with it too =/ Dinner tonight with sis n her bf at Le Bistrot! Free somemore, ROX MAN! Heading off to Zirca with CYC after tt, i think.

PS: I need to be stronger and BAD, like Kelis!

I'm freaking damn weak

I dont know why i choose to believe lies or choose to believe in the impossible. Whichever is it, only god knows. Although i applaud my courage sometimes but such courage can also be fucking silly. Reminds me of Rihanna's song..

In any case, if the opp doesnt care then i shouldnt either. Life sucks but the only way is to suck life back. I hate my ego and how i find it hard to pour my problems out to people when i know i need to. One day i'll go crazy and just die. I'm sure this incident won't kill me but someday, somethign else would. Its gonna be just that way. Don't dabble.

Right now, i just wanna go on a holiday but i obviously can't, since i'm working.. And i need money to live. I just might buy an air tix to vietnam on impulse for July. But that's kind of retarded since by right, i should get over this mini turned huge fiasco by my Birthday. Oh, my birthday better not be a lousy one otherwise my life is really fucked up. MAJOR.

I thank my frens for being there to ask wats happening. I may not tell y'all everything but trust me, i really want to. And knowing tt y'all care enough to ask is good enough for me. LOVES.

PS: I will not let tears cloud my eyes, cos that is defeat in your eyes.

Got it, lost it.

A bullshit week this is, went from a peak to a sudden gorge. Life sucks in essence. Anyways, moving on once again just as i thought life was turning for the better..

Waiting for my dear pay! Please please, i need money badly. I'm once again at the stage of wanting to retire from clubs for at least a while. Sick of it alrdy and nothing good comes out of it. Especially after unfortunate events. Wonder wat friday would turn out to be like =/

Shopped at Zipia this morning, gonna continue with ASOS tmr n tues night! Once again, throwing my pay to shopping then start to regret like approximately one month from nowwwwwwwwwww.

Went out with besties to town today. Town seriously sux! Fucking boring, nearly fainted from boredom. U two! We should go museum hopping one day, can comment on stupid and nonsensical pieces.
Followed by dinner with CYC at Greenhouse, shiokx, nearly died of bloatedness, i couldnt walk after tt. Every step seriously took my breath away. Every burp was like raising my chest to my head. Its worse than 10 graveyards, seriously. Lol.

Lastly, i would like to thank my frens for making feel like i have frens. LOVE Y'ALL MUCH!

PS: Will tmr be a better day?

Peach blossoms.

Its been some time since i felt like blogging i think.. today's a gloomy tuesday, sky's dark, cafe's empty except for one table. These sort of things get me depressed n thinking about life. I think its like that for everyone right? I've also realised tt i'm addicted to clubbing and my bones are itching madly now cos i didnt club for e whole of last week! God, please let tmr be fun! Please please please! I hope e pple at butter havnt gotten stricter on guys drinking lady's free drinks =P  And i'm hoping tt SOMEONE who doesnt read my blog will go but somehow, i doubt so..                                                                                             PS:  I might lose.